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cbcpaul · 06-23-2011, 12:49 AM

OK....if I reply to this older thread it will come up again on the board at the top of the list.

It's funny I always thought letting go of things would be so hard that it would be impossible.

Once again I was wrong.

It's hard to count the times that I have been wrong about things during this journey.

I thought I would die.
I thought I would never be happy again.
I thought that everything was wrecked.
I thought that my marriage was over because of this.
I thought my birth family would never speak to me again.
I thought I had permanently wrecked my own psyche.
I thought I would never laugh again.
I thought I would never again speak with or communicate with my sister.
OMG...the list is endless.

I was so wrong on so many things that I can't list them all.

Just keep working at making yourself a better you, be honest with yourself and do the work to make yourself a more authentic you. This is not a destination (being an authentic self)...it is a continuous journey that will uncover great pearls of understanding along the way.

As long as you are working at this, and nurturing yourself along....you will continue to grow through this and towards joy again.

When I realize that I am wrong about something now....I just laugh at myself. I think my view of myself and my ego, needed, and got, a good thrashing!

I am more humble now than I used to be. I never thought anything like this COULD happen to me. I was shocked when it did....... how could "I" ever allow anything like this to happen? What's wrong with me?

Well....the universe humbled me a lot, and I have come to realize that I have my faults and frailties. And as I went through this journey, I accepted that I had a lot to learn, and a long way to go to be authentic, to be the best possible version of me.

In fact there was a point that it was like a big tension in my body, mind and soul, and then it sort of all started slipping away, and I was left with a very satisfying peace that washed gently over me. A moment of realization that I had accomplished "something"... and moved from the stuck place.....forward in my own personal growth.

Accepting and embracing GsA as part of who I am now, took a lot of work.

Apparently I NEEDED to do a lot of work on myself!

"Letting go", is not something that happens instantly. It's a continuous process where one small step in front of the other, in the right direction, will help you let go and move forward.

Once again LostSister your original post in this thread was a grand slam, hit it out of the park and break a window.... home run!

Love
paul

06-23-2011, 12:49 AM	#14
cbcpaul Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Somewhere in western Canada. Posts: 298	OK....if I reply to this older thread it will come up again on the board at the top of the list. It's funny I always thought letting go of things would be so hard that it would be impossible. Once again I was wrong. It's hard to count the times that I have been wrong about things during this journey. I thought I would die. I thought I would never be happy again. I thought that everything was wrecked. I thought that my marriage was over because of this. I thought my birth family would never speak to me again. I thought I had permanently wrecked my own psyche. I thought I would never laugh again. I thought I would never again speak with or communicate with my sister. OMG...the list is endless. I was so wrong on so many things that I can't list them all. Just keep working at making yourself a better you, be honest with yourself and do the work to make yourself a more authentic you. This is not a destination (being an authentic self)...it is a continuous journey that will uncover great pearls of understanding along the way. As long as you are working at this, and nurturing yourself along....you will continue to grow through this and towards joy again. When I realize that I am wrong about something now....I just laugh at myself. I think my view of myself and my ego, needed, and got, a good thrashing! I am more humble now than I used to be. I never thought anything like this COULD happen to me. I was shocked when it did....... how could "I" ever allow anything like this to happen? What's wrong with me? Well....the universe humbled me a lot, and I have come to realize that I have my faults and frailties. And as I went through this journey, I accepted that I had a lot to learn, and a long way to go to be authentic, to be the best possible version of me. In fact there was a point that it was like a big tension in my body, mind and soul, and then it sort of all started slipping away, and I was left with a very satisfying peace that washed gently over me. A moment of realization that I had accomplished "something"... and moved from the stuck place.....forward in my own personal growth. Accepting and embracing GsA as part of who I am now, took a lot of work. Apparently I NEEDED to do a lot of work on myself! "Letting go", is not something that happens instantly. It's a continuous process where one small step in front of the other, in the right direction, will help you let go and move forward. Once again LostSister your original post in this thread was a grand slam, hit it out of the park and break a window.... home run! Love paul __________________ Home, home again, I like to be here when I can. *!!!!!!! PLEASE READ OUR HOME PAGE !!!!!!!!* / Last edited by cbcpaul : 06-23-2011 at 01:13 AM.