[cedarforest]

Roe, No disrespect intended, but I'm REALLY having trouble following the logic of your experience & how you relate it on this site. You relate GSA as a gift, maybe it is, but your experience with your son doersn't sound like it to me. For someone to want to use you physically to satisfy their needs & urges, sounds like lust & gross selfishness. You keep saying your son loved you (and you should know better than me), but your words describe a person who is driven by lust & lack of character. Those seem to be the kind of people we DON'T need in our lives. And, it seems your relationship with your son proves it, since you can not be with each other.

What you call love, is not what I call love. Love is kind, love is gentle, love is long suffering, love puts the other's interest ahead of their own interests. Based on your description, I don't see love from your son, not TRUE love.

You seem to be a goodhearted person, & i don't have a personal beef with you. But I really have a hard time understanding why you're so high on others experiencing the "crossing the line aspect" of GSA, when your circumstances turned out so bad. Please enlighten me.--cedarforest