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I do feel better in ways for saying something. I do invariably feel extremely guilty as in both our lives we are now in full relationships with other people and after spending almost the entire month of September with her, having to come back and be in a relationship with someone else is very very hard to do emotionally.
I feel guilt over the relationship I am in, the relationship she is in and yet I can't help but feel so much joy when I talk to her, just always thinking in my mind what I can do for her just to be close to her.
This upcoming weekend will prove interesting as I will be going back down and spending the night with one of my other new sisters and the one I haven't met is coming into town because she wants to meet me as well.
I have a daughter by someone else from a while back whom I see as much as I want and she has a daughter who lives with her. In fact, our daughters have quickly become best friends. Her daughter spent the night over this weekend with my daughter and they just get along famously.
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