[cedarforest]

Soconfused,
Any improvement, is improvement. I'm glad to hear that you have "better days", to some degree. Much better days will lie ahead, if you "plan your work, & work your plan". You can train your mind & yourself to redirect the thoughts that lead to pain. The strongest among us are NOT those with physical might, but those who are "self-controlled". It is a wealth that very few of us experience to the degree that will change our lives from unmanageable, to peace & contentment.

One day at a time & one decision at a time, will reap peaceable friuts & a bountiful harvest. Best wishes to you.--cedarforest