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[lostsister]

I am now gripped within the intensity of this new relationship,

As feelings in me unfold, that have never before manifest I am having to take a little time to observe them.

Brother Love, is intense, and I struggle not to sexualise it.

I don know how to deal with it..and the taboo that exists ?

Well I couldnt care less..This is private , its between him and me...

Its our journey to navigate lovingly, treading gently with each others hearts.

We have met via e mail only at this stage, my half Brother , 8 years younger to me, who I never new existed two years ago.

I had made attempts to contact my paternal Family I had never known years before, and came to many many rejections,

yes they knew about me, but " didnt want to know me....."



Three weeks ago, my younger half brother made contact with me, and we formed an instant bond, partially due to my intense delight that a family memeber might want to find me, and

the Fact that he had his whole life dreamed of an older sister, and now he Said his dream had come true.........The acceptance I feel is the overwhelming thing, for me.

For the "Rejected "Amongst us , sudden acceptance, that is pure unjudgemental, and unmotivated, can act as a powerful tonic for a heart broken many times..

Who can say if its right or wrong..

perhaps its symptom of our society Gone Wrong

A society where the desire to Sexualise reltionships, has fragmented F A M I LY into splinters.

We are encoded all of us, to seek a sence of belonging, when we cannot find that belonging within a family, we seek to create a surrogate Family,

but when you finally meet one who is carrying "pieces of you" the overwhelming urge to unite the pieces, can drive you forward into Questioning..Well just what IS TABOO ! and what is not.,

I am so grateful to have found this site, Its only been three weeks, h/b is on the other side of the globe, I have read everybodies story and am thrilled .

I feel much stronger to face the Magical mysterious Journey God has layed before me, and to endure the pain that must surely accompany such a journey.





Thank you all

from my heart!

[BarbGonyo]

I don't know if you are able to watch the TV show on this subject or not. If you are in the States it will be on Feb 20th ABC Primetime. If not you might want to try getting to Primtimes website after the show is aired.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. This is a long and hard journey no matter what choices you make.

Barb Gonyo
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[lostsister]

I am in Australia, but I will most certainly Go to the Prime site and view the Programme....

Personally I believe GSA has more to do with "missed bonding" for the overwhelming first sensations that seem common to all are an almost desperate need to be held, cuddled, stroked and Hugged...

great to have your Support, and in this instance I feel very fortunate for having found you so early in the piece.
I have been in contact with by h/b only for three weeks, and recognised some obsessivee behabiour on my own part , after only a few days.I put it down to my exceitement at connecting with him at first, but then I bean checking mails every 10 minutes, and my letters to him became saturated with emotional outpourings that were too full on..He seems to ignore, and makes no mention in his replies, I felt a sense of rejection, and alarm bells went off ofr me.After I had stared at his picture for the 100th tiee, and the fantasies started I immediately went to google, researched incest first, consumed with Shame , and then I finally found you.
Its been a blessing to read every ones experience and I am now prety sure that It is only me with GSA, in this relationship, though I sense that if I were to bring it up, I could if I wanted to, engage him.
How do I know this? He is also emotionally charged by our new relationship, and tells me I am the Woman of his Dreams..Having this site a s reference has helped me back off...I have ceased my frantic communication for a couple of days, and he seems not bothered...which of course brings up feelings of rejection ,, but I am gratefully looking deeper into myself now...
I do not wnat to loose him from my life...Thats the bottom line for me..I need a brother,
The feelings that well up in me , for him, are unfamiliar to me, in the sense that I have never felt brother love.....and I am now trying to rationalise and enjoy it for that..
Cant tell you how compassionate I feel for all here, and the ones that have made the Taboo their own business I feel happy for, for the ones who have lost their relationship I ache for,I am pretty sure that I can somehow turn this around , and am now very cautious of my own behavior.