Introduction

ILDWAMY · Posted: Sat Mar 06, 2004 5:39 pm Post subject: Introduction

I just wanted to introduce myself. I came in contact with my biological mother 8 years ago. we talked for a long time until just over a year ago when the GSA subject came up. I had felt those GSA feelings for her from the begining, but did not tell her because i thought there was something wrong with me. I finally couldn't take it anymore, and told her how i felt about her. almost immediately the feeling was recipricated, and as we began to talk about it openly, we soon learned that the feeling was always there for both of us. everything progressed very rapidly. long story short, we both ended up divorced, and tried to pursue a romantic relationship. after some time spent living together, she had to leave me to go try and get custody of her two young children that she left to be with me. we were very much in love, and still are. i have since tried to be with another woman, and quickly learned (as i had already suspected) that i can not be with another woman. after being with my birthmom, i simply emotionally do not have anything to give another woman. My mom has my heart and always will. This relationship has cost her, her kids (at least for now), and cost me a career in the military. I am not ready yet to say that i wish we wouldn't have pursued it because i have never been happier in my life than i was when we were together. However i feel tremendous guilty over how much her kids got hurt, and i have probably ruined forever any potential relationship i could have had with my younger half-siblings. in effect i took they're mother away from them in an effort to fulfill my own needs to feel loved by her. in any case i'm glad these forums are here in order for all of us to be able to share our experiences with each other. i hope somebody can get something from the brief summary of my story, and i look forward to sharing more, and reading what others have to say.