Genetic Sexual Attraction

elf · Newbie Joined: May 09, 2004 Posts: 2

hi all, i met my half brother about 6/7 years ago and within 6 months it had become a gsa relationship, nobody knows about are relationship tho my brother believes people are suspicous and he's probably right as neither of us has had a relationship with anyone else since meeting each other,we have both been in tears at times because of the stress of our situation,knowing we can never have a "normal" relationship. i am deeply in love with him and feel i have found my soul mate, my heart aches at the thought of not being in this relationship with him. over the last few months he has made steps to start our splitting up,not being as physically close,not seeing as much of me, telling me that what we are doing is wrong,he has started going out more in the evenings which frightens me beyond belief and i feel im just sat waiting for the end. i understand what he is saying but i feel i would give up everything for him even my own family,he knows this as i have told him,i know he loves me in both a lover and sister way but feels it has to stop as he is desparate about other people finding out,at this moment in time he wants to maintain a sister/brother relationship obviously i have to respect this,but i feel that i cant be near him if its not a sexual,i want him so much i have never felt like this before for anyone even my close family members. the thought of him with anyone else makes me wretch and i know my heart is breaking and i cant stop it and i know that i shall feel this for the rest of my life, i have shown him literiture on the gsa subject and how common it is and its nothing to be ashamed of but he says that it still doesent make it right, this is the first time i have ever said/written anything about this publicly, what can i do?
xx

bonnie · Newbie Joined: Apr 30, 2004 Posts: 3

Hi Elf.
I read your story and my heart hurt for you. I have been in a ralationship now for two years with my bio half bro and at times we have thought about not being together because of the stress it puts on our relationship. From trying to constantly hide our feelings for eachother in front of other people. It's really hard in front of my family. At times it can be confusing to him because he feels that he has to go back and forth with his actions. One moment he is my lover the personim going to spend the rest of my life with the next he is having to treat me in a sisterly way or just friends . So I know its hard. Has he visited this site? Maybe it would help if he saw that he is not alone. Anyway,I hope that everything works out for the two of you.

Bonnie