in love with my dad

I don't really know where to start. I have been visiting this site for some time now in the hope that it may help me to understand the feelings that I am experiencing at the moment. My dad is the greatest dad that I could wish for, as a young child I was your typical 'daddy's girl'. Sadly, my mum took me away when I was about 7 and shortly afterwards I lost all contact with my dad. It wasn't until nearly 20 years later that we met back up again.

I remember our first meeting so well, it was wonderful just to be held by the strong arms that I had dreamed of for so long, and boy did we chat!! For hours. Instantly, we had so much in common and hit it off. Within a fairly short time, it became apparent that we felt much more for each other, and soon admitted that indeed we were falling in love with each other.

Now we still live separately. I am no longer married, due to other reasons. My father remains married. We see each other as often as we can and enjoy making love with each other (there is no risk of pregnancy), holding hands, cuddling as well as the more dad/daughter type things. If only society was different, our relationship would be too!

I struggle sometimes to accept that my dad still chooses to go home to another woman at the end of the day, and spend time away on holiday with her. At times, I feel like 'the other woman'.

Yet despite all this, I love him so much and would not want to lose all aspects of our wonderful relationship. Would love to hear your comments/advice, but please do not tell me to stop this relationship because that would be an impossible feat. Thanks for listening x