I need help

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Okay..i'm a guy..and i've been attracted to 2 of my cousins for about 2 years now...The first one...we didn't met in 8 years and one day, she came back in town..and we had talked 4-5 times before she came back..and i had a big attraction...and it was the same for her...and we're so close now..like brother and sister...i had some dreams..where i have sex with her...also..people keep saying that we're together..and she's upset about those rumors..she always talked about it to everyone...and i had another dream where i have sex with her again...recently..we call eachother by names..like lovers...but its for fun..i guess..my friends knows about my attraction to her..and they know she's my cousin...and..recently..i'm thinkin...Am i normal?..Am i weird?....and for my other cousin..we learned this past january...that we we're cousin...that our fathers we're half-siblings...since then..we're more closer than before..but she's closer in a other way...she always hug me..everywhere..and its not a normal hugs...and once..she was very drunk..and she act like i was her boyfriend..and i was ..i didn't know what to do..and it was in front of people..and again this past saturday..we were at a party...she was holding my hand..sitting on my leg..givin me hugs..and then..we were alone in a room..she closed the light..and talked to me..very closely..she put hers legs on me...until someone else came to the room..now im thinkin just about havin sex with her...does she share the same feeling about me too?...i find it very weird...i have a lot of cousins...and those 2..i dont know...strong attraction..is it bad?..i dont know what to do and to think anymore