In a hotel room

Jesternotlaughing · 06-08-2006, 08:36 PM

I was adopted some years ago. After many years of searching, my birthmother and I found one another. We met a while back and then we later got a hotel room together so that we could spend some more time "getting to konw one another". We both agreed that it was not going to be of a sexual nature, but that didn't hold up. I started off sucking on her nipples because she and I had not had that experience in life, and then we were both down to our underwear. She laid on top of me for a while and just rubbed my face and hair, and then I was on top of her. I tried keeping some distance between our lower private areas because I did not want her to know that I was sexually aroused. After a few minutes she informed me that I was wet with pre-cum, but she enjoyed it, and asked if I would remove my underwear so she could see me. Not wanting to be rejected, I did just that and a few hours later of touching one another and "getting to know the other's body", she performed oral sex on me. We have done this a couple of times, and are still talking about the next time we get some "private" time together. I do love her and I want to be with her completely, but I know this is wrong - I just can't stop. When I make love to my wife, I invision my mom and imagine the diffent positions I would like to have her in. Also, as sick as this is, I would really enjoy having my manhood penetrate the part of her body that housed me for nine months. Please help with some advise becuase I know I should not feel this way, but I just want her to know me and love me, and I would seriously do anything for that feeling. My adoptive family is not very loving, so I am getting one of the few loving feelings I know, but it is from my own mom. No, I was not sexually abused, incestuous previously, etc.

LovingBro · 06-09-2006, 02:12 AM

A quick question for you..... How old are you two and are you living fairly close to each other?

And why was a hotel room chosen?

The feelings you are having are actually fairly normal according to the research I have done. A longing for the natural breastfeeding experience even as an adult because you have no memory of it.

What age were you and bmom separated?

Just helps to know these things as well.

To not have love and then have it so profusely can cause some anxiety, confusion and fear.

Be slow, careful and think about the relationship you want to have with this woman. Is she your mom? Lover?

I really feel for you as I have some GSA issues with a sibling. Mom is out of the picture, but I could understand it if I were in the position.

MamaR · 06-09-2006, 01:00 PM

Jester, I am wondering why you are here? I am finding your post highly suspect. It reads like paperback porn. It would have been enough to say that you and your mother crossed the line but did not have intercourse. The rest is, frankly, none of our business.

Your attitude towards her sounds much more sexual than loving. I know of one mother who crossed the line with her adult surrendered son because she knew it was what he wanted and she felt she, somehow, owed it to him. :shock: Now that is one fallacy of which I am glad to say she was eventually dissuaded.

I would recommend that you put your overactive libido in your hip pocket and fasten the button and start thinking about the people in your life that can be hurt by this, including her, whether she shares your desires or not. I'd also recommend that you send her to this site. She can't be proud of what has happened and I can see her needing a lot of support.

Meanwhile, spare us the descriptions of your sexual encounters or explicit fantasies. Just as in more appropriate relationships, what is done behind closed doors is private.

LovingBro · 06-09-2006, 01:12 PM

I would have to agree as to the level of detail.

None of our business...............

Leia · 06-09-2006, 01:52 PM

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Also, as sick as this is, I would really enjoy having my manhood penetrate the part of her body that housed me for nine months.

That line makes me suspicious. why say its sick?
its not sick, but you ARE too graphic.

Jesternotlaughing · 06-09-2006, 05:31 PM

Leia, thank you for understanding - it is not "sick", maybe too graphic, but not sick. I appolgize for being too graphic I just want others to see and understand what I am going through; I am wearing myself out mentally.

06-08-2006, 08:36 PM	#1
Jesternotlaughing Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: USA Posts: 2	In a hotel room I was adopted some years ago. After many years of searching, my birthmother and I found one another. We met a while back and then we later got a hotel room together so that we could spend some more time "getting to konw one another". We both agreed that it was not going to be of a sexual nature, but that didn't hold up. I started off sucking on her nipples because she and I had not had that experience in life, and then we were both down to our underwear. She laid on top of me for a while and just rubbed my face and hair, and then I was on top of her. I tried keeping some distance between our lower private areas because I did not want her to know that I was sexually aroused. After a few minutes she informed me that I was wet with pre-cum, but she enjoyed it, and asked if I would remove my underwear so she could see me. Not wanting to be rejected, I did just that and a few hours later of touching one another and "getting to know the other's body", she performed oral sex on me. We have done this a couple of times, and are still talking about the next time we get some "private" time together. I do love her and I want to be with her completely, but I know this is wrong - I just can't stop. When I make love to my wife, I invision my mom and imagine the diffent positions I would like to have her in. Also, as sick as this is, I would really enjoy having my manhood penetrate the part of her body that housed me for nine months. Please help with some advise becuase I know I should not feel this way, but I just want her to know me and love me, and I would seriously do anything for that feeling. My adoptive family is not very loving, so I am getting one of the few loving feelings I know, but it is from my own mom. No, I was not sexually abused, incestuous previously, etc.

06-09-2006, 02:12 AM	#2
LovingBro Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: LSW Heart Posts: 15	Not so bad A quick question for you..... How old are you two and are you living fairly close to each other? And why was a hotel room chosen? The feelings you are having are actually fairly normal according to the research I have done. A longing for the natural breastfeeding experience even as an adult because you have no memory of it. What age were you and bmom separated? Just helps to know these things as well. To not have love and then have it so profusely can cause some anxiety, confusion and fear. Be slow, careful and think about the relationship you want to have with this woman. Is she your mom? Lover? I really feel for you as I have some GSA issues with a sibling. Mom is out of the picture, but I could understand it if I were in the position.

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06-09-2006, 01:00 PM	#3
MamaR Member Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 55	Jester, I am wondering why you are here? I am finding your post highly suspect. It reads like paperback porn. It would have been enough to say that you and your mother crossed the line but did not have intercourse. The rest is, frankly, none of our business. Your attitude towards her sounds much more sexual than loving. I know of one mother who crossed the line with her adult surrendered son because she knew it was what he wanted and she felt she, somehow, owed it to him. :shock: Now that is one fallacy of which I am glad to say she was eventually dissuaded. I would recommend that you put your overactive libido in your hip pocket and fasten the button and start thinking about the people in your life that can be hurt by this, including her, whether she shares your desires or not. I'd also recommend that you send her to this site. She can't be proud of what has happened and I can see her needing a lot of support. Meanwhile, spare us the descriptions of your sexual encounters or explicit fantasies. Just as in more appropriate relationships, what is done behind closed doors is private.

06-09-2006, 01:12 PM	#4
LovingBro Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: LSW Heart Posts: 15	I would have to agree as to the level of detail. None of our business...............

06-09-2006, 05:31 PM	#6
Jesternotlaughing Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: USA Posts: 2	Leia, thank you for understanding - it is not "sick", maybe too graphic, but not sick. I appolgize for being too graphic I just want others to see and understand what I am going through; I am wearing myself out mentally.