I Feel Like Ending It All

Danielle Heaney · 08-07-2007, 04:38 PM

This separation is not going well what so ever i wish it would just hurry up and come to court and be finished with. I just feel like ending it all for Nick and me so we do not have to go through this anymore. I keep thinking it would be so easy and simple just to take many tablets fall asleep and never wake up. This separation is slowly killing me and it is still going to be a couple of month before it is all over. I do not know if i will cope without cracking up at least. it is so hard not having him here.

Danielle

BarbGonyo · 08-07-2007, 05:30 PM

Dear Dear Danielle,

Have you ever heard the expression, "a permanent solution to a temporary problem"?

That is what you have now is a temporary problem. Don't give up and quit as it will pass. No one can keep you apart forever. You two are in Gods hands, and I'm sure there are many people on this site who are praying for both of you and God listens very closely because He loves you both.

I know how difficult and unfair it seems that you are kept totally apart and treated as though your are criminals who are a threat to society. Only you can prove that you are not out to hurt anyone. All you want to do is give love.

Be strong and ask God to get you through the pain and show you the way to resolve this issue. It may not seem that it will happen as quick as you want it to but you will get through this and be together again.

Barb G

diamondbabysis · 08-07-2007, 06:45 PM

Danielle, though my circumstances were some what different than yours, I know how you feel about the ending it all. Please don't do that!!! I did not think I would make it. For about 4-5 months it was pretty scary. I dreamed of driving my car into a tree or taking the pills in the drawer. I held them, counted them, tried to make sure that I took enough that it would be OVER not in some vegetative state. But time has helped. I still have bad days, but they are not quite as bad.... not quite as lonely....& I hold out hope to one day see & talk to him again. Some of the interest I lost in my other family, grandchild etc has returned. And I know my kids need me. I never thought I'd be saying this to anyone. I didn't talk about it to anyone, but my online support......I cried & typed many nights. When you feel like you can't go on, just remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!! Many of us have been there. And everyone wants to help hugs!!!! DBS

Danielle Heaney · 08-08-2007, 01:53 PM

Thank you all for your support in this difficult time in my life, its nice to have such good people to share my story, feelings and fears with and the support is wonderful at keeping my head above water. Thank you Barb for reminding me that they cant keep us apart forever, i lose sight of that fact very easily when i cant see an end to all this.
My email address is [email protected] if anybody want to email me. Thank you. Danielle. xxx

08-07-2007, 04:38 PM	#1
Danielle Heaney Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: scotland Posts: 29	I Feel Like Ending It All This separation is not going well what so ever i wish it would just hurry up and come to court and be finished with. I just feel like ending it all for Nick and me so we do not have to go through this anymore. I keep thinking it would be so easy and simple just to take many tablets fall asleep and never wake up. This separation is slowly killing me and it is still going to be a couple of month before it is all over. I do not know if i will cope without cracking up at least. it is so hard not having him here. Danielle __________________ WE WILL MAKE IT

08-07-2007, 05:30 PM	#2
BarbGonyo Administrator Join Date: Oct 2003 Posts: 291	Danielle Dear Dear Danielle, Have you ever heard the expression, "a permanent solution to a temporary problem"? That is what you have now is a temporary problem. Don't give up and quit as it will pass. No one can keep you apart forever. You two are in Gods hands, and I'm sure there are many people on this site who are praying for both of you and God listens very closely because He loves you both. I know how difficult and unfair it seems that you are kept totally apart and treated as though your are criminals who are a threat to society. Only you can prove that you are not out to hurt anyone. All you want to do is give love. Be strong and ask God to get you through the pain and show you the way to resolve this issue. It may not seem that it will happen as quick as you want it to but you will get through this and be together again. Barb G __________________ Barbara is the author of "I'm His Mother,but He's Not My Son" (formerly titled "The Forbidden Love, GSA". In the paper back edition of Forbidden Love, there are a total of 20 books left in that form. "The Forbidden Love Genetic Sexual Attraction is $15.00 plus postage and handling. Postage varies in places. In the U.S. postage comes to $2.31 Austrailia Fast Slower $8.40 one week $4.05- 4 weeks New I'm His Mother, but, He's Not My Son" will now be available electronically for your convience. The price is $15.00 check made out to Barbara Gonyo 906 Ioka Mt. Prospect, IL 60056 Upon receiving the order you will be given instructions on how to obtain the book. I hope this will be helpful to all of you who were having trouble getting the book. Barb Gonyo

08-07-2007, 06:45 PM	#3
diamondbabysis Junior Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 20	Hang in there Danielle, though my circumstances were some what different than yours, I know how you feel about the ending it all. Please don't do that!!! I did not think I would make it. For about 4-5 months it was pretty scary. I dreamed of driving my car into a tree or taking the pills in the drawer. I held them, counted them, tried to make sure that I took enough that it would be OVER not in some vegetative state. But time has helped. I still have bad days, but they are not quite as bad.... not quite as lonely....& I hold out hope to one day see & talk to him again. Some of the interest I lost in my other family, grandchild etc has returned. And I know my kids need me. I never thought I'd be saying this to anyone. I didn't talk about it to anyone, but my online support......I cried & typed many nights. When you feel like you can't go on, just remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!! Many of us have been there. And everyone wants to help hugs!!!! DBS

08-08-2007, 01:53 PM	#4
Danielle Heaney Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: scotland Posts: 29	Thanks Thank you all for your support in this difficult time in my life, its nice to have such good people to share my story, feelings and fears with and the support is wonderful at keeping my head above water. Thank you Barb for reminding me that they cant keep us apart forever, i lose sight of that fact very easily when i cant see an end to all this. My email address is [email protected] if anybody want to email me. Thank you. Danielle. xxx __________________ WE WILL MAKE IT

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