hi all im a newbie

kelly · 11-03-2007, 10:18 AM

Hi everyone,
im kelly, and this is my first post and to be honest im a little nervous about what to say here.
i found this wonderful place a few days ago... my first visit i spent about 5 or 6 hours reading
as many posts as i could to get an idea what i would be letting myself in for here.

about me...
well as i said my name is kelly and im 22 i live in the south in the uk not that far from london...
when i was about 2 1/2 my dad left the family (me and my mum) according to my mum he just went
without saying much to anyone because he was a drunken womanising sh*t,
in short.
even so i wanted to meet him so much but it caused arguements between my mum and me constantly

im cutting out so much here to keep it less than a few hours read

all i knew about him was from my mum... and i found out it was from her point of view not entirely accurate.

one night my mum was out late and i decided to look at some
old photo's and i found a few old letters too.. one was only about a year old
and it had an email addy for him so a few days later i sent him a email

"hello im your daughter" that was it

i got a reply about 2 hours later it was a couple of pages long he told me a few truths in it
truths i had never known before.

i added him to my msn messenger straight away and next night he was there as he said he would be
we chatted for most of the night and every night for a few weeks.

he wasn't a drunk and never had been or a womaniser...some of her distorted facts

he was working in germany ..... working???? mum said he never did that !!!
to cut a long story short i never got all the cards and gifts from him he sent no letters recieved...
she had binned them.

i confronted my mum about him and we really rowed, so a few weeks later i rented my own flat and moved out.
then in july 2007 he told me he was comming to england for 2 weeks on a work break and if i wanted to
we could meet.... and yes i jumped at the chance to see for myself what he was really like

we met at my flat and cried and hugged for hours ...its the first time i have seen a
grown man cry like a baby which made me cry even more.

now its 4 months later and he couldn't go back to germany so he's here with me we are very
much in love
i dont think i could bear it if he went away again and he says he couldnt go back without me.
so he has taken a job here to be with me and were so very happy.

we do have awkward moments quite often when we are being close we both feel the attraction
but up to now we haven't given in to our urges.. mainly due to his restraint not mine, he doesnt want to
ruin what we have.. and for me ??? well i am left feeling "needing " more if thats how to explain it.
i am happy that we are able to talk openly about almost anything and everything, im not as strong
as he is when it comes to passion and our desires but he always seems to be able to put a different
outlook on things.
in short im confused, we both want never to be apart again and im sure he wants me as i want him
and i also know we could really screw things up if we "cross the line".

neither one of us have any other relationship to worry about so what happens now ... where do we go from here?
what do we do now?? will i always be so confused about these things
if anyones has read this to the end.... thankyou

if you have any advice please feel free to give it
all advice will be read and concidered..... ty all

thankyou for listening
kells

BarbGonyo · 11-05-2007, 07:27 PM

Hello Kelly I'm glad you were able to find this site and talk about your feelings.
If you have read as many posts as I think you have, then you have seen that there are two sides to this story of GSA. There are those who have crossed the line and say they are happy but not trouble free and those who have lost touch all together mainly due to crossing the line and all the problems it presents.

I hope for you and your father to have a long relationship as father and daughter because it is really what you both are lacking, not sex. Once it becomes sexual it is very hard to stop and make it what could be a wonderful father daughter realtionship.

I wish the best for you and hope you will keep reading the posts to see that what so many think is the easy way is really the hardest way.

Barb G

kelly · 11-05-2007, 08:33 PM

Thankyou Barb for your post,

We are trying to fill our time together by doing all the things we missed out on
during our separation like trips to the cinema or visiting zoo's and sometimes horse riding and just generaly going out and having fun together, my social life has never been so busy !!!!
so we are making a concious effort to re-build our father/daughter bond.
I wont say it's always easy not to think of the other side of our feelings but if we are out in very public places it's less likely to be able to have the privacy to take the wrong path... well that's the theory lol

kells

11-03-2007, 10:18 AM	#1
kelly Junior Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: south of england Posts: 17	hi all im a newbie Hi everyone, im kelly, and this is my first post and to be honest im a little nervous about what to say here. i found this wonderful place a few days ago... my first visit i spent about 5 or 6 hours reading as many posts as i could to get an idea what i would be letting myself in for here. about me... well as i said my name is kelly and im 22 i live in the south in the uk not that far from london... when i was about 2 1/2 my dad left the family (me and my mum) according to my mum he just went without saying much to anyone because he was a drunken womanising sh*t, in short. even so i wanted to meet him so much but it caused arguements between my mum and me constantly im cutting out so much here to keep it less than a few hours read all i knew about him was from my mum... and i found out it was from her point of view not entirely accurate. one night my mum was out late and i decided to look at some old photo's and i found a few old letters too.. one was only about a year old and it had an email addy for him so a few days later i sent him a email "hello im your daughter" that was it i got a reply about 2 hours later it was a couple of pages long he told me a few truths in it truths i had never known before. i added him to my msn messenger straight away and next night he was there as he said he would be we chatted for most of the night and every night for a few weeks. he wasn't a drunk and never had been or a womaniser...some of her distorted facts he was working in germany ..... working???? mum said he never did that !!! to cut a long story short i never got all the cards and gifts from him he sent no letters recieved... she had binned them. i confronted my mum about him and we really rowed, so a few weeks later i rented my own flat and moved out. then in july 2007 he told me he was comming to england for 2 weeks on a work break and if i wanted to we could meet.... and yes i jumped at the chance to see for myself what he was really like we met at my flat and cried and hugged for hours ...its the first time i have seen a grown man cry like a baby which made me cry even more. now its 4 months later and he couldn't go back to germany so he's here with me we are very much in love i dont think i could bear it if he went away again and he says he couldnt go back without me. so he has taken a job here to be with me and were so very happy. we do have awkward moments quite often when we are being close we both feel the attraction but up to now we haven't given in to our urges.. mainly due to his restraint not mine, he doesnt want to ruin what we have.. and for me ??? well i am left feeling "needing " more if thats how to explain it. i am happy that we are able to talk openly about almost anything and everything, im not as strong as he is when it comes to passion and our desires but he always seems to be able to put a different outlook on things. in short im confused, we both want never to be apart again and im sure he wants me as i want him and i also know we could really screw things up if we "cross the line". neither one of us have any other relationship to worry about so what happens now ... where do we go from here? what do we do now?? will i always be so confused about these things if anyones has read this to the end.... thankyou if you have any advice please feel free to give it all advice will be read and concidered..... ty all thankyou for listening kells

11-05-2007, 07:27 PM	#2
BarbGonyo Administrator Join Date: Oct 2003 Posts: 301	Hello Kelly I'm glad you were able to find this site and talk about your feelings. If you have read as many posts as I think you have, then you have seen that there are two sides to this story of GSA. There are those who have crossed the line and say they are happy but not trouble free and those who have lost touch all together mainly due to crossing the line and all the problems it presents. I hope for you and your father to have a long relationship as father and daughter because it is really what you both are lacking, not sex. Once it becomes sexual it is very hard to stop and make it what could be a wonderful father daughter realtionship. I wish the best for you and hope you will keep reading the posts to see that what so many think is the easy way is really the hardest way. Barb G __________________ Barbara is the author of "I'm His Mother,but He's Not My Son" (formerly titled "The Forbidden Love, GSA". In the paper back edition of Forbidden Love, there are a total of 20 books left in that form. "The Forbidden Love Genetic Sexual Attraction is $15.00 plus postage and handling. Postage varies in places. In the U.S. postage comes to $2.31 Austrailia Fast Slower $8.40 one week $4.05- 4 weeks New I'm His Mother, but, He's Not My Son" will now be available electronically for your convience. The price is $15.00 check made out to Barbara Gonyo 906 Ioka Mt. Prospect, IL 60056 Upon receiving the order you will be given instructions on how to obtain the book. I hope this will be helpful to all of you who were having trouble getting the book. Barb Gonyo

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11-05-2007, 08:33 PM	#3
kelly Junior Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: south of england Posts: 17	Thankyou Barb for your post, We are trying to fill our time together by doing all the things we missed out on during our separation like trips to the cinema or visiting zoo's and sometimes horse riding and just generaly going out and having fun together, my social life has never been so busy !!!! so we are making a concious effort to re-build our father/daughter bond. I wont say it's always easy not to think of the other side of our feelings but if we are out in very public places it's less likely to be able to have the privacy to take the wrong path... well that's the theory lol kells